LIFE JUST TOUGH

WHAT HAPPEN?!

 feel like all the shit pouring on me.

 first with the backbone. then accident.. then  accident then

accident again .. the quite scary accident

 the day was full of fog and mom told me that my car cant use during night because the light is damn dim and the wiper and my skill. . it is dangerous .

 so what i answer is.. is alright 6.30am  nobody will be there. i can drive.. to school.. uni.. utar.. so i drive..

on the way to fishball hse.. taman u .. i fetch her.. and all goes well.. 

wathefuck is the stupid fog when i using my wiper to wipe it i cant see infront 

all of a sudden... my friend said carefull !

ngikkkkkkkkkk bang .. bang.

ok i bang the divider.. fly up and to the road.. 

  whathehell 

i move the car to aside..

walk out..

ok nice.. my tire .. burst 

and also my "bumba" (dono spell) 

all die..

and fishball call her dad.. to look to see whether can change or not..

and uncle vry nice.. really..

he help me to change but dont know why is very hard..

so uncle say drive my car to side abit.  here is centre of the road nt that good.

so ok .. i go in.. start the enjin .. press my clutch this that oil.. and shit.. it can move . 

my brain is really blank... 

mind.. all  blank

im so afraid .

i promise my dad mom i will be safe what the hell im actually doing now..

i promise sihchen promise fishball will drive them to school. safely..

and.. all goes like this.. because of me .

so i jz left my car there. centre of the road. bless my little black will be safe . 

and im sorry if my car blocked the road and jam =')

fishball dad drive us to school for the exam.

went school . called mom . dad . vick .lok . this that those

cried. 

backbone. injured again because of this bang.

pain like nobody business. but what to do accept tahan ?

exam... no mood to study .. no mood to test . 

i know i should calm myself down and exam is more important. 

but come on. i almost kill ppl .

and the scene .. flash back flash flash flash untill now. the sound. the tire. the here and there.

uncle helped me to call the ppl to tarik my car. 

and help me o put there. and i really trouble uncle alot..

i am so sorry . so so so so so sorry and thx really really really thx .

my mom was in penang. she working , and her daughter here.. killing her mind . 

same as dad. same as my dear victor.

i dont know why.. as victor said.: " You never failed to let me worried about you.

why . and why . i asked myself. but . no answer. 

the car spent 500 to fixed. 

sportlink

tire

here

there 

blablabla

sorry . sorry . sorry .

another thing with my backbone.

sorry im not from rich family. 

i dont want waste so many money because of my backbone.

hospital . 500  plus to check .

clinic . 40 bucks canbe done.

went clinic .

doctor lunch time .

nvm.

ask for xray.

good. spoiled.

my family is worried like 。。。
im so sorry to them . for letting them worry me . sorry . 

but seriously. is pain.

now . now NOW . RAIN . HERE THERE DANCE RUN JUMP FLY TAKE LAPTOP THIS THAT
NO 

pain . really pain

everyday complaint in twitter. everyday. everyday. 

i should jz tahan myself . try to not write out . but haha is so nice to type out my feeling .

i will feel better .

nowadays kid. cant live without internet. same goes to me .

sorry.
i dont know how to forgive u .

i tried. but the painess i cant tahan.
but please.
never do this to others.
the painness u cant even felt.
it will be forever and ever.
it will spoiled my future as well.

我相信。 我的人生经验 都会比普通人来得强来得丰富。 生死。

除了忍耐。 哭。祷告。叫。 我不知道可以怎样。

THX GOD IM STILL ALIVE.